Well. Last night at about 3:30 or 4 am (and I get up at 6 am to go to school) while I was lying in my bed trying to sleep I thought about all sorts of things. At the time I was tempted to go turn my computer back on and write them all down here, because some of them related to a couple posts back, my "Yawn" entry. I came up with a reason why I'm so shy (it's all my brothers fault, too), and probably a couple other things that are escaping me at the moment...

Recently my dad, being the weirdo he is, converted a collection of tapes to CD (mp3 format, his car stereo can play them). Unfortunately for me, these tapes consisted of those like, motivational speaker kind of things. So every day on my way home from school he'd play another tape (essentially). I admit, they were useful for napping purposes. I think a few subconsciously seeped into my brain, and one of them was about the "power" of empathic listening. This is somewhat important. I suggest that it is my brother's fault that I'm shy. Last night I had this all worked out beautifully, it hit me like density and displacements hit Archimedes. If I can remember it somewhat correctly, it has to do with my brother teasing me. I believe it has something to do with emotional reactions, (according to that speaker guy) when you want to say something and whatever you say is immediately made fun of, you become less and less interested in saying anything. Or something. So that's that, my brother is an asshole and he fucked me up.

(I totally didn't intend to explain that... Oh well.)

Oh, and one more thing, if what I said in the comment with the supposed "Jeff Desch" has thrown anybody off asking about what I mentioned in "Yawn" (I admit I was kind of hostile), I'll try and not do that. But seriously. Did my mother beat me... What kind of question is that?

I've been rewatching Ghost in the Shell's 2nd season, and I found out that KAA & a4e are both doing it right now, and at roughly double the quality of the ones I have right now. So, I'm getting those :P Going slow right now, but perhaps it'll speed up later...

Adion is currently listening to: Mike Foyle presents Statica - Space Guitar [4:50]