Well, it's been a while since I posted so I decided to. I've gotten pretty far in FMA, I'm episode 27, and I only stopped because I think my dad'll be getting home and I'm screwed. I promised him on Saturday that I'd do all the scholarship by today, but I only barely started on one of the essays... I finished one that didn't need an essay, because that was simple, but these other two are not fun. One asks "Interpretations of the Constitution often conflict. If you could go back in time and ask the Framers just one question to clarify meaning, what would it be, and why is the answer important today?" I have that one started a bit, but I have no idea what the hell I'd ask them. Sure, there are a lot of issues dealing with the Constitution, like first amendment rights with the PATRIOT act... And the right to know what you're being punished for... I can't wait another 3 years to get this guy out. Anyway, off of politics, the next one asks "Explain why you are interested in studying abroad. If you know where you would like to study, describe where and explain why." The problem is, I'm not sure if I want to study abroad, so I don't even know where to get started. I can go pretty much around the world to all the cool countries out there if I wanted to, but I don't really know where I'd really go. I can go to Great Britain, Germany, or even Japan, but I don't even know if I'd want to go to any of them. I'm not interested in Germany, and they haven't really been a major force in the field of Engineering I'm interested in. Japan and Great Britain are both major competitors, but naturally to go to Japan would probably require me to have a general idea of the language besides whats in Animes. I've picked up some from anime, but seriously, that won't help me. That and I'll forget it. There is the argument that if you don't have a lifeline to fall back on, you learn the language of the place you're in rather quickly... But I don't know what I'd do until then... And how am I supposed to take lessons on Engineering, a tough topic as it is, when I can't even understand what the professor is trying to tell me? Finally, Britain would be a pretty cool place to go, but it really isn't that much different from the US besides that it's super old fashioned. And I'm not really sure I'd have a good time there either, because all the schools there are pretty hardcore too. I'd spend all my time indoors studying (if I could just learn how to study...) instead of out and about looking at all the sweet scenery and castles. Especially the castles.

Anyway, the point comes down to me not being sure if I want to study abroad or not, and if I don't go study abroad then why should I even waste my time and do this essay... But I know I should because I can still get 500$ a semester (which is taken back if I don't study abroad...), and any money helps. Also, I still don't have a job. I went over to a Menards that just opened (still technically isn't open) and applied, but they haven't called back so I don't think they're going to hire me. A friend of mine did the same thing and he already got a response & was hired, so I had him give a good word for me >.> But I don't think they really need the people right now, he mentioned something about them being swamped with applications...

Also, I'm doing really bad in math still. Theres a quiz on Wednesday, and it's essentially my last hope this quarter, because it ends on Friday, and we won't be here Thursday, and there are no other assignments of value enough to bring my grade up. As it is, I can only hope for a C. Things are not looking up...

Jordan's still not talking to me. I'm not sure if it's still about the same thing anymore either, because I'm sure we both know that it was a trivial incident that started this. Maybe he just doesn't want to be the one to say I'm sorry. I guess I can understand that, thats most of the reason I haven't said anything either. I am really tempted to just be like, gomenesai and give him the gold that he doesn't really deserve but might as well have. I'm not sure how much longer I can afford to play WoW as it is now. I need to get a job soon, or I won't be able to go anywhere. Also, I need to turn in a housing application for UIUC sometime soon too. Preferably yesterday. Or any other day in the past really. College is going to cost about $22k, and I'm expected to come up with about 12 of that, and as it is I have about... $1500 in scholarships if I win everything. I need wayyy more. I'm just such a bad kid I don't look around and find stuff. Or really search down a job. I'm sure if I really wanted one super bad I could have gotten one by now. Argh. I need to get back to work on Calculus...

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